- List 10-15 things that you want to say to people, but never will.
- Don't say who they are.
1. I want to talk to you about things that make me happy but i cant.
2. What are you holding out for? What's always in the way?
3. I really wish you could be the happy person you were when i met you, i think you're fantastic, i wish things worked out for you.
4. I dont feel comfortable around you but i think youre a good person.
5. I think you're really hot.
6. I'm sorry i get annoyed with you.
7. I'm really glad i've met you and i'm looking forward to getting to know you more.
8. I enjoy spending time with you when you're grown up.
9. You are one of the funniest people i've ever met and you don't realise it.
10. I really miss you and I don't think you think I do.
11. You're the best thing thats happened to me in ages, I'm stupidly ridiculously happy you're mine.
edit: i probably would say some of these things to people but these are things i want to say
i miss chick a lot.
i miss his smile and his sleepy eyes when we go to bed and cuddling up with him and kissing him.
i miss his voice, i love his voice.
i miss the silly little way he talks when he says certain words, like the way his mouth moves.
i miss him kissing me on the cheek when he thinks im asleep.
i miss holding hands with him.
i miss sitting on his lap listening to placebo when we're both really drunk. that was the night we realised that This Modern Love by Bloc Party is our song because it is so much like us.
i miss seeing him walk around in my jeans.
i miss the way he'll bribe me with tea and ravioli and bed so that i dont go home.
thanks chick. thick.
im sick of being in this place.
this place where im scared to do anything. where i do things which make me feel safe and pass the hours and days so that i dont have to realise the truth. the truth that im just pathetic and dont do anything which makes me proud of myself. i dont do anything which makes me feel like ive achieved something.
im sick of being the person everyone thinks i am.
ive decided to stop caring so much about certain peoples comments and not letting them consume me since everyone else feels the same so i know its not my problem, its theirs. i know its not really intentional but i dont understand how someone cant realise. well screw it, im sick of thinking im the one in the wrong.
i need to organise myself. i didnt go to uni today cos i couldnt get up, another thing i need to talk to my doctor about friday. so now im trying to do reading and i just cant concentrate.
nnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh. someone slap me.
i think im getting a new crush
this one is not good....
xfm does this thing where the listeners can send in a playlist and they get to talk about each track on the radio.
now, this is often hilarious because of the things the listeners say. i mean its probably your one chance to get your voice heard by thousands of people about the bands and music that is most important to you. if i was on there i'd say something more exciting than "i like this band and i've really been getting into them recently and i chose this track cos its good and i think it would be good on the radio."
not joking, thats what this bloke just said.
also, this bloke just played smashing pumpkins, the smiths and then a morrisey solo track, whilst talking about how much he loves morrisey. errrm, mikeyway turned into a big northerner? D:
my dreams were so ridiculous last night that i feel i have to write them down.
so im in homebase and i notice ant and dec looking at some compost. then i realise as they are walking off that the compost has got a hole in it and its spilling on the floor. so i go to the check out to tell them and they are looking all giggly and theyre like "yeah we know, shhh" like its all part of a big plan. so i hang around for a bit and i put their stuff in bags cos im thinking "this looks like im just hanging round cos theyre famous" (wtf? its ant and dec....) then they leave and i never found out what they were doing with that compost.
so i go upstairs to the staff room and jenni summers is there in a homebase uniform and im like wtf? when did you work here? and she tells me that she works in the kitchen. when did homebase have a kitchen? i notice that theres a door id never noticed before and assume this is the kitchen.
and then im in the locker room and im trying to get my stuff to go home but its full of my art things, drawings and stuff so i get a portfolio and im trying to shove it all in there so i can get my coat. and theres loads of girls there who are younger than me, talking about how one of them always goes out with loads of boys. but one of thems a lesbian and shes talking about this girl she likes (shut up....)
then for some reason im in a theatre, front row, waiting to see sharon osborne and her daughter, holly (whos holly?) i have no idea what im waiting to see them do but theres a big desk and when they come out we all start screaming and they sit down. i notice theres some people standing right by the stage, like bouncers, but its dot and pauline from eastenders.
i keep rocking in my seat and i cant stop doing it, like im just rocking back and forward and i keep trying to hold onto the arms of the seats next to me to stop myself but i cant.
then i woke up.